The pursuit of Ambition

I'm sure most of you guys have been at a fork road when you had to decide which course you'd want to take to further your studies. I was there too, for a pretty damn long time. After SPM or equivalent to the O-levels, I had NO CLUE what I wanted to be or study or do in the future. All I know was, I love colours, art and everything beauty related (not just physical beauty of human but also nature and objects). We used to take all sorts of personality test to see what characteristics we own which would suite better in certain fields, however mine was always quite messed up which did not help me in deciding what to pursue.

Well, initially my very first ambition was to be an air stewardess. But when I told my family, they didn't seem too fond of the idea (grandma left newspaper cuttings on my table regarding report of an air stewardess who died in a crash and how the constant pressure up in the air affects ovaries and birth rate) lol. Then I wanted to study 'Cosmetology', but my parents felt like it wasn't a proper course to take. When I finally decide to study 'Fashion Designing' or 'Graphic Designing', my parents again talked me out of it saying that it's hard to get a well paid job if you're not super famous and all that. Sighs. When I opted for 'Hospitality & Tourism', grandpa told me it's no good to serve people for the rest of your life and when everyone else is on vacation and having holidays, you're going to be super busy.....Because I changed to arts stream when I was in highschool, I couldn't do engineering or be a chemist or a doctor or anything like that..(even though I secretly know that is what my family would have preferred).

So finally it was between 'Mass Communication' and 'Psychology'. Clearly, I chose Psychology. I love infants, kids and children. I know this sounds stupid but I've always believed that people do bad things for good reasons in desperate situations. There are those though, whose mind aren't as healthy and strong and do bad things with no positive intention...and I wish to help them regain stability. I think that the development of habits and perception are strongest at a young age because it is imprinted and nurtured subconsciously. Besides, most of the cases I've studied usually relates back to certain childhood experience, which is why I want to help treat kids in the future, to make sure they don't go cray cray and act cray cray when they're adults (if possible)  :) People always think that psychologists can read minds BUT seriously we can't!! We read your behaviour and body language. Not your thoughts :p

Anyway, I like having accomplish a lot of things in life (to strike it off my bucket list :p) and thus I have a thirst to try new things and explore. I'm usually okay with having things decided for me but recently I've got this urge to want to juggle the things I WANT and NEED to do at the same time to satisfy myself and my family!

Just yesterday, I helped my bestie with her graduation project by being the makeup artist for her model. I've got to say I'm quite surprised that she (model Vanessa) actually liked how I did her makeup and even wanted my contact to recommend me to her boss! Gosh, even though I have a strong passion for make up, I don't have a qualification or the proper tools! But yet, it made me felt soo *happyexcitedimpressedcombo* <3 Macam that feeling of being good at something ya know? A small achievement makes a big difference!

Me doing Vanessa's make up for a sportswear photoshoot

That really made me do a lot of thinking. Degree in Psychology is just a stepping stone. Despite having a lot of disapproval from my family, I'm still going after what I love to do but only after I've graduated. Meanwhile, I'll do freelance part time jobs (email me if anything! @belle.wsy@hotmail.com) to earn some extra $$$ so I can take up Spanish and maybe pay for my Cosmetology course! ^^ Well, hopefully all goes well! *ps! Wait for my next post about NE.W, a very unique and special sports bra ;)*

xoxo